Going into High Alert

I got up to leave, however, she wanted to talk to me. I knew it wasn’t good as usual, this was probably going to be the second time this was happening. I know, I go on too much and I need to cut down and get off it. Even the higher up knew about what I was doing and saw it, too obvious as they put it. However this time I really am going to cut down alright and keep myself busy with what I am suppose to do.

The case was not just that it was another person who got involved. She asked about what happened to another, and it turned out to be miscommunication. If this keeps up she said I would be left alone to fend on my own as it stood. I clearly see that already as I know what being a loner is all about however I did tell before hand what I had done before passing over the files and it did not work out as I expected. Shy and timid and easily taken advantaged of I really hurt another without even realising it in the first place.

Now things have to change, I have to pace down for the group or else I will be speeding ahead of them. Many problems, some of them struggled to get to where they are today, however as I came from a blessed place they do not see me equally and hence I have an uphill battle ahead of me.

She said I had to get rid of the bad habits while at it, and I have to agree it’s time to really cut down or I would be in trouble. I have one more month at this and this is really the last straw as they put it. I rather be scolded and told that my job was on the line but she said she doesn’t want to replace me with another and that demotivated me instead of pushed me forward well it was expected to begin with.

Now I really have to change alright or else things will be hard for me in the future.